Ugly

I went shopping for some clothes today. I have a presentation in one of my classes Tuesday and we have to look good. We have to look professional. I thought I looked good enough in my jeans and a t-shirt, but apparently that’s not what the other professors had in mind. So while I was clothes shopping, I got a good look at myself in those full-length mirrors. I’m ugly. There’s just no way that I’m at all anywhere attractive. It dawned on me right then why Gee chases those 15 year old fans of his, looks at other women and said he didn’t love me anymore. I can’t imagine why anyone would love me or want to be with me.

That shouldn’t be the goal of my life, to have a companion. I know of plenty of people who are single and their lives are just swell. I fear being alone. When I run out of Corn Flakes or milk, it will be up to me to go to the store and get more. No one will wake up before me and do this. I’m responsible for what happens to me. I don’t like it. I would go insane without other human contact. My goal in life should be to make the world a better place for future generations. My goal in life should be to make it a better place for the present generation. I spend so much time looking in that mirror when I pass it, that I’ve lost touch with what I originally set out to do.

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