Deletion Never Felt So Good

I deleted a blog off of my old profile today. That profile is as old as this site, and going on nine years is a long time for a website. By now, a domain would have been through three or four scalpers. But not this site. I like this site. I like what I do with it. I like having this place to express myself.

I considered for a long time of not deleting that blog off of my main profile. I liked that blog, it was a little expression of myself, but I couldn’t attach myself to it forever. I couldn’t simply delete it forever. I like what I come up with, in terms of screen names and domain names. I really do. I like change. So where does that leave my old blog? The number one reason I did not delete it was because I knew when I did, someone would register it and pretend to be me again. People like me so much they pretend to be me. The best thing is to not give them any free avenues. That’s why you have to register to comment here. I want no fakes leaving me comments. You have to register and then verify the email address you’ve registered with.

Getting that blog off my main profile was therapeutic. It’s disassociating something that became a potential negative off of something that never was a potential negative. Overall, my blogging experience has been a positive one. I’ve had my bad days with it, no one can say they’ve never had a totally positive experience with anything, but what in life doesn’t come with some down sides? I don’t have to look at it anymore. I don’t have to log in and be reminded of it anymore. I can have a public profile once again. I can focus on crimsonsparkle.net now because I know I don’t have to be constantly looking over my shoulder for the mistakes of the past to come home to roost.

If anything, I’ve learned that history can repeat itself without the same aggressors. For example, when the World Trade Centers fell, it wasn’t Americans who had done it like in OKC. Did that make it any less severe? Any less frightening? Not to me it didn’t. Same situation, two different nationalities. If you’re being harassed on a message board by people who dislike your green background, then you’ll probably be harassed on another board for your small font. It’s all political in the end.

I’d rather be liked for who I am, not my site’s presentation. I’d rather be liked for having interesting things to say, not whether I have a state-of-the-art site. I’d rather be liked for having great writing skills than to have people pointing and laughing because I’m so stupid. Yes, there are people in that denial out there. They’re incredibly stupid and the sad thing is they don’t even know it.

I fully believe we have total control over our futures. I am taking that control.

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