Jumbled

I have not written in so long because I cannot think of anything positive to put on these pages. I love to write, but I do not love to just write to write. I sit down and stare at the cursor blinking back at me. I’m in turmoil about things that happened in the past clashing with things from the present. History repeats itself and those who did not learn from their mistakes are destined to repeat them. I want to believe my friends of many years, but at the same time, trust in someone I feel is telling me the truth. I don’t like being in this situation and it’s showing in all aspects of my life.

I want to believe the best about people. I want to believe that all people have souls and they are basically good. Then I’m laughed at and called a “dreamer who does not live in the reality of things”. The last few weeks have opened my eyes as to who I am and where I am going with my life. Dennis offered his help on my dilemma, but I cannot, in good faith, ask him for any help. He does not need the added stress of the problems that I have gotten myself into.

I have some photos from my trip. I just need the strength to post them or create a photo gallery. I’m not sure when or if I will have the energy to do that, if ever.

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