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I woke up an hour ago to the awkward silence all through the house. I’d fallen asleep in tears sometime around 3am, to the sound of Pogo’s raspy breathing, remembering her last day. She was teaching Chloe how to read, she wanted her to carry something with her always, something that she had given her. [...]

I think one of my boys might be autistic. Why:

Give him anything with colours and he matches them up according to colour and then eats it (if it’s food). His brother just eats when he’s given fruity Cherrios. That’s a sign of autism, right?
Pogo woke me up, crying, today. She woke me up at 4am [...]

In less than one month, I will be 29 years old. If anyone wants to buy me anything, I have a wish list, and everything is under $50. All I ask is that if you buy me a journal, pen or planner, buy new, ok? I’d hate to get something like that and have it [...]

I think I accidentally overdosed on my narcotics last night. I took three instead of two. The pain was just so bad. I slept for over 12 hours. I still feel funny. I had weird dreams about riding on a subway (though I’ve never been on a subway before) and then of being robbed and [...]

We cleaned up Pogo’s room last night. There was stuff everywhere in her room. Things had been on the floor for days, it seemed. I also packed away some of her clothes. That girl has more clothes than a department store. Mostly I packed away her Christmas dresses and extra sheets and shoes. She insisted [...]

I took some more pain meds last night, and for the first time in several weeks, they didn’t make me drowsy or dizzy. I think that’s an improvement, even though I did sleep, but only for less than four hours. I took my pill bottles down to the drug store to have them refilled. Ten [...]

Today I lied to a friend. I’m no better than the Chels-Beast who plagues the internets with her lies and misrepresentations. I asked my friend Matt for some money today. I told him I needed gas for my car and food for my kids. He gave me $200. What did I do with it? I [...]

100 Things about me. I was brutally honest there.
More when I’m not in a hurry.