WHAT have I done???

Posted on July 31st, 2009 by star in Family

Last night…. well this morning since I didn’t get to sleep until 5am (thank you very much MT upgrade) …. I had a dream that I married Billy and we were so happy together. It was really weird. He didn’t beat me, he didn’t force me to have sex with him. He was happy. I [...]

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It's 4am I Must Be Wasted

Posted on July 31st, 2009 by star in Drugs, Family

It’s 4am and here I sit analyzing things on the internet. Boring things, mind you. My pain isn’t back, but I’m awake and wondering what the hell is going on.
My husband knows I’ve been involved in drama, but he doesn’t know what. I promised him when I got my new domain, I wouldn’t get involved [...]

This and That

Posted on July 30th, 2009 by star in Health, Life, Medical, Pictures!, kids

The pain is nearly a memory today. I’m not sure if it’s because I put medicine on last night or because I took that hot bath. Either way, I’m happier without it. It has no place in my life right now.
I seen something amusing on MSN today. Some neat-freak defines “clutter” as a drawer [...]

Pain Returns

Posted on July 29th, 2009 by star in Illness, Life, Medical

I’m updating this from my phone, so it may be short and sweet and the punctuation might not be the best.
The pain came back later on today, with a vengeance. It made me cry, it made me double over. Mostly, it brought fear to me. I’m all alone here with four little kids and I’m [...]

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The Pain Worsens

Posted on July 29th, 2009 by star in Family, Health, Illness, Life, Medical

The pain got bad last night. Bad enough that it kept me awake from about midnight until dawn. I writhed in pain for hours. I was at that point where I was willing to do anything to get rid of it. I even slept cross-ways in the bed. I tried to sit up. I adjusted [...]

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Abnormal People

Posted on July 28th, 2009 by star in I hate people

I love how petty people can be on the internet.
Maybe ‘petty’ isn’t the word for it. Maybe ‘down and out stupid’ is a better way to describe what’s been going on these past 24 hours.
You see, I’m piecing together a puzzle that is nine years in the making, and I think I have found the [...]

yum

Posted on July 27th, 2009 by star in Depression, Drugs, Life

ice cream +narcotics + wine = me

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Birthday Aftermath

Posted on July 26th, 2009 by star in Depression, Family, Life, kids

Chloe had a wonderful birthday. We spent most of the day watching videos of her daddy. She wants him to come home. As badly as I want to call him to find out when he’s coming home for sure, I don’t dare to. Some people are better left alone. Or at least until things cool [...]