Downward

It’s pretty evident that I am depressed.
Rather than search around for MP3s for PlayList, which we’re doing mid-month this month, I sat and researched when I was supposed to be back in class, researched my schedule, and made a small list of things that I need for school. I have no motivation to research music, and I have less of a motivation to actually throw together a playlist for people who just bitch at me at the end of the month, demanding to know why their songs didn’t make it to the top 100 most voted for list. It’s called a top 100 Voted In Song list for a reason!!
Dennis says he’s bringing me back something from his trip tomorrow evening. I hope whatever it is, it doesn’t require antibiotics to get rid of. heh. I can be mean and sarcastic when I’m depressed.
If I’ve filled out my schedule card right, I only have classes three days a week this fall, and if I’ve filled it out right, I’m only in class two full days. The rest of the time I can somewhat blow off. Oh wait. I can’t blow off school.
I feel like I’m too old to have a blog/website. This seems like something a high schooler would do or be interested in. Most of the blogs I read are run by 19/20/21/24 year olds. I’m the oldest in the circle of readers, and I’m not even thirty yet. Where did it all go? Where did it all go wrong?
Nothing is going right, Josh isn’t answering me, I feel like I have failed before I’ve even begun.
It’s time to get out the pen and paper and write until my heart no longer hurts.

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