Archive for October, 2009
Happy Halloween!
Anyone remember that image? It’s about seven years old. Back then, I made the mistake of going to the mall on Halloween. It was deserted. Maybe that’s a good thing. 
I was able to go to any store in the mall and buy whatever I wanted without the hassle of lines or the paranoia of someone walking behind me to steal my purse.
Yes, I’m still living in the past.
No, I won’t be going to the mall tonight.
I have little ones to take around trick or treating. Chloe has a cat costume picked out. She’s going to look beautiful.
Oh, and the radio is still playing Christmas songs. They start the holiday season earlier and earlier every year.
Anyone remember that image? It’s about seven years old. Back then, I made the mistake of going to the mall on Halloween. It was deserted. Maybe that’s a good thing. I was able to go to any store in the mall and buy whatever I wanted without the hassle of lines or the paranoia of someone walking behind me to steal my purse.
Yes, I’m still living in the past.
No, I won’t be going to the mall tonight.
I have little ones to take around trick or treating. Chloe has a cat costume picked out. She’s going to look beautiful.
Oh, and the radio is still playing Christmas songs. They start the holiday season earlier and earlier every year.
Happy Halloween!
Anyone remember that image? It’s about seven years old. Back then, I made the mistake of going to the mall on Halloween. It was deserted. Maybe that’s a good thing.
I was able to go to any store in the mall and buy whatever I wanted without the hassle of lines or the paranoia of someone walking behind me to steal my purse.Yes, I’m still living in the past.
No, I won’t be going to the mall tonight.
I have little ones to take around trick or treating. Chloe has a cat costume picked out. She’s going to look beautiful.
Oh, and the radio is still playing Christmas songs. They start the holiday season earlier and earlier every year.
Reflections
It just hit me… I’ll be 30 next year. Out of the terrible twenties. I’m not sure if that’s significant or not.
Actually I’m not sure of anything anymore. I used to have my life semi-mapped out. I was covered til about 2009 or 2010. Go to college, get my degree, find a job, have some fun, yada yada. I can’t see that vision anymore. It’s locked away in some sort of time warp and the key seems to have been misplaced.
I’m questioning what I even want anymore. My mind seems to keep wandering to the freedom of roaming and travel. I’ve always been pretty sure what I wanted but as each day has turned into another month I become more confused. I don’t know what’s important and what’s not. It’s hard to see beyond one day let alone a month or a year.
I don’t make resolutions. I never have. I’ve spent my time setting goals and trying to see them through. I don’t know anyone who’s ever stuck to their resolutions. It’s almost like they’re made just so they can be broken. I’ve never liked the concept of breaking something I say I’ll do so I just stay away from that type of thing.
So in conclusion… I’d say I was just as confused today as I was yesterday.
Current Status: lacking euphoria, slightly evanescent, mildly misguided, and occassionaly flamboyant.
The Most Wonderful Time of The Year
They’re playing the continuous Christmas Songs already. It isn’t even Halloween night, yet, and the Christmas songs are filling the air tonight. I have to admit, it made me feel warm and happy all over again. I mean, they used to start the Christmas songs on Thanksgiving night, but playing them now? That’s even better! For the last five years I’ve always looked forward to this time of the year. There’s always something magical and innocent at Christmastime.
Shortly after the happiness of Christmas came, I was overwhelmed with sadness. This will be the first Christmas in a long time that we’ll be going through without our daughter here. Without the happiness and joy she brought us every year. She wasn’t a given. She was a gift. I wondered what she would have asked for Christmas this year. The American Girl Doll of The Year? Last year she wanted to shadow mommy so badly she asked for an iPod and a nose piercing. I remember her first Christmas. I was playing in the college concert band and I had a solo. I remember seeing her perched on my mom’s lap, holding a candy cane and smiling at me. She was only 10 months old, but she knew who I was.
The Christmases after that seemed to fly by. Just ten short years later, I am planning to leave a bouquet of blue roses on her grave on Christmas Day. It shouldn’t have to be this way.
It's The Most Wonderful Time Of The Year
They’re playing the continuous Christmas Songs already. It isn’t even Halloween night, yet, and the Christmas songs are filling the air tonight. I have to admit, it made me feel warm and happy all over again. I mean, they used to start the Christmas songs on Thanksgiving night, but playing them now? That’s even better! For the last five years I’ve always looked forward to this time of the year. There’s always something magical and innocent at Christmastime.
Shortly after the happiness of Christmas came, I was overwhelmed with sadness. This will be the first Christmas in a long time that we’ll be going through without our daughter here. Without the happiness and joy she brought us every year. She wasn’t a given. She was a gift. I wondered what she would have asked for Christmas this year. The American Girl Doll of The Year? Last year she wanted to shadow mommy so badly she asked for an iPod and a nose piercing. I remember her first Christmas. I was playing in the college concert band and I had a solo. I remember seeing her perched on my mom’s lap, holding a candy cane and smiling at me. She was only 10 months old, but she knew who I was.
The Christmases after that seemed to fly by. Just ten short years later, I am planning to leave a bouquet of blue roses on her grave on Christmas Day. It shouldn’t have to be this way.
I think these pictures speak for themselves as to whether or not I had a good anniversary. Twenty six pictures follow.
The new Magic Mouse:
It’s so much better to have a mouse that actually works! It scrolls, it moves around very well. What do you know? Apple is finally on the ball!!
The anniversary cake was the real treat. It was white with red, purple and orange daisies and green borders. Our names and the years were in green icing. It was a perfect, three-layer cake, and purple decorations on the sides.
The top of the cake:
Side design detail:
Anniversary bouquet photography.
There was a black cat in pipe cleaner form.
It came in a pumpkin planter:
The layers of the cake:
Oh, and I got a quilt similar to the one I wanted. I think I’ll get my other quilt next month for Christmas. ::
I also bought some Ghost shower gel and Snow Fairy Shower Gel, both from Lush. I haven’t tried Lush’s shower gels yet,and I hope they’re as good as the Mint shampoo that I’ve been using.
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