Any time in the next couple of days little James can be coming home. I’m super excited about it. Our family will be complete again.
James had his surgery and he pulled through ok. He’s responsive now.
With all that has come into light, my husband and I have decided to do our Christmas shopping either online or through mail order. That kind of disappoints me because this time of year is all about the lights for me. I love going out to see the Christmas lights and the stores decorated for the season. A small pang came back when I got an email from American Girl reminding me to order the Girl of the Year doll for Pogo. I teared up as I deleted the email. Unless they can send dolls to Heaven, I won’t be ordering it this year.
My husband thinks that by ordering through the mail, I will save some pain of having to walk around the stores. My pain isn’t really that bad right now. I still take pain management pills at night so that I can heal. Constantly tossing and turning prevents your body from properly healing, so you might still be in pain the next day. I really do like walking around and looking at the decorations and all the joy that is out there this time of the year. I’m going to miss that. I’m going to miss just driving around at night and looking at all the lights. We’re still going to the Winter Lights Festival this year, and we’re still going to drive around on the Tour of Lights, so it will all be ok.
All I want this year is for my family to be safe and sound and for us to have many more Christmases together. For the emotional and physical pain to stop. For things to be a little brighter. I love this time of year, it’s the time when miracles happen. It’s time for a miracle to happen.