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The Person In The Shadows

It just hit me… I’ll be 30 this year. Out of the terrible twenties. I’m not sure if that’s significant or not.
Actually I’m not sure of anything anymore. I used to have my life semi-mapped out. I was covered til about 2012 or 2013. Go to college, have some fun, get my degree, find a job, have some fun, yada yada. I can’t see that vision anymore. It’s locked away in some sort of time warp and the key seems to have been misplaced.
I’m questioning what I even want anymore. My mind seems to keep wandering to the freedom of roaming and travel. I’ve always been pretty sure what I wanted but as each day has turned into another month I become more confused. I don’t know what’s important and what’s not. It’s hard to see beyond one day let alone a month or a year.
I don’t make resolutions. I never have. I’ve spent my time setting goals and trying to see them through. I don’t know anyone who’s ever stuck to their resolutions. It’s almost like they’re made just so they can be broken. I’ve never liked the concept of breaking something I say I’ll do so I just stay away from that type of thing.
So in conclusion… I’d say I was just as confused today as I was yesterday.

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3 Comments »

  • Louise (1 comments) said:

    I don’t usually make them either but I really want to improve my life over the next year so I made quite a few. My overall goal is improvement in my life so I don’t feel like I’m going to fail.
    I’m turning 30 this year too and I feel like life is just going to pass me by. I don’t want that to happen so I need to DO things.
    I hope you find yourself

    - 2 January 2010 at 12:58 pm
  • Robin (12 comments) said:

    Hi Jamie,
    I will be turning 40 this year, so I hope this makes your 30 sound better. I just try to live life day by day. We are not promised tomorrow. I believe God has a plan for each of us and he will show us the way. Setting goals is good and it is always great when we succeed. Have a great day! :-)

    - 3 January 2010 at 2:53 am
  • Robin (12 comments) said:

    Hi Jamie,
    I will be turning 40 this year, so I hope this makes your 30 sound better. I just try to live life day by day. We are not promised tomorrow. I believe God has a plan for each of us and he will show us the way. Setting goals is good and it is always great when we succeed. Have a great day! :-)

    - 3 January 2010 at 2:57 am