Archive for February, 2010
Little Update
I talked a little with my weekend nurse, Judson, and he told me I was in isolation because my doctor suspected C. diff, but he went home at 5pm on Thursday and never ordered the tests. Which left the staff at the hospital to do everything without knowing my immediate medical history.
Yesterday I was ping-ponged back and fourth from nuclear medicine to my room with little results. Yesterday afternoon it was decided that I did not have C. diff. My doctor put me on these extreme antibiotics because he’s sick of me having strep, and they made me extremely sick.
It was recommended that I not leave the building yesterday, despite being out of isolation. Ha! Do they know me or what??
Smile. It’s a beautiful day.
I had a nice long post here about being out of isolation and possibly released on Tuesday and the weekend nurse resembling Larry from Perfect Strangers, but my iPhone ate it.
Smile for me! I insist!!!!
They may feed me today. I was given a new medicine last night and some yogurt to prevent vomiting and yeast infections. I haven’t thrown up today.
I’m still skeptical about passing my class this semester because I’ve missed so much already. My professor told me to just concentrate on getting well, nutbi keep thinking about not graduating in May and thinking about ways to make up the time.
The food is here now. I’m still in isolation, and I don’t know why. I’m off to eat now.
My dad came to see me last night decked out in a gown, surgical cap, gloves, booties and a mask. which means that I’m in isolation now. 
Am I ever going to get well?
I’m back in the hospital. They probably wouldn’t have admitted me but I have heart problems. I’ve been here since 8am and for someone who is in desperate need of hospitalization, they sure aren’t rushing to give me any meds. I’m on a saline drip and that’s all. If I were this late in getting someone theor meds I would have been fired.
If anyone wants my hospital room and location to send gifts, email me. for now I’m going to try to get some rest.
Noooooo!
I think I’m getting strep again! NO! I just got over that! And the nasty yeast infection that went with it.
I’ll make an appointment to see the doc tomorrow. Right now I have to gag down my pills.
Deeper
The sadness won’t go away. I feel isolated and trapped. I tried to reach out to several friends today, and the only one who didn’t flat out ignore me picked a fight with me and we had a falling out.
*sigh*
When did it get so complicated? Why is it so complicated? I know I am blessed, I know I am loved, I know Dennis won’t be away forever, but I have this sense of dread and lonesomeness that just overwhelms me. Then I have these super-hard, super-hardcore labs that are due every single day between now and April 2end. Eight pages of handwriting each. It’s enough to drive me crazy! Today I didn’t even finish the lab–I was a couple of pages short. On the first new lab. What the hell is wrong with me?
I found out that Dennis has gone through a thirty count bottle of Seconal in about six days. That’s too much too soon. He emailed me a text asking for the prescription number so he can get it filled overseas. I told him that I didn’t know where the bottle was–after I seen the refill date was February 15th. When I confronted him about this, he said it takes about six pills for him to relax. WTF?? I think it’s time that the family doctor and I had a little talk.
I’m off to bed. Nothing else much to say.
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