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I feel like I am about to explode. I jumped through hoops to get my mom some money today, twice as much as she originally demanded that I give her, and guess what? It wasn’t good enough. Then she tells me that she doesn’t need the money after all. I remember grabbing all of my [...]

I got almost everything done this afternoon. I say almost because I’m waiting on doing the dishes until later tonight. The warm weather and the fact that I feel much better are reasons why I got most of my stuff done today. I know cleaning house and taking care of kids all while [...]

The sadness won’t go away. I feel isolated and trapped. I tried to reach out to several friends today, and the only one who didn’t flat out ignore me picked a fight with me and we had a falling out.
*sigh*
When did it get so complicated? Why is it so complicated? I know I am blessed, [...]

Thank you all for the well wishes.
I wish I could say that I’m better and ready to get to class on Monday, new lab book in hand, but I’m still not well. I’m nauseated and groggy. I have heart burn and my back hurts. I’m really falling apart, huh?
I’m going to medicate and [...]

I’ve been depressed all day. Every time I think of something I could be doing, I have to wind myself up just to get off the bed or out of the chair to do it. I have half-done projects all over the place, things that I started today, that I know won’t get done until [...]

It happened. It wasn’t glorious, it wasn’t overly dramatic. I just stood there and let it happen. It’s not as if I didn’t know this was coming, I knew. I knew well. It was more that I was expecting myself to react differently. I was expecting to cry, to be overwhelmed with feelings of dread [...]

Tomorrow morning my husband will be getting on a plane and going clear across the world for his career. We do need the money, but I wish there was a better way. I wish I could say that I made his last few days with the family a memorable one, but I simply pushed him [...]

The stars are out, but I don’t want to go look at them. I want to stay in bed and sleep. I can’t do that, either. I have a small confession to make: I have broken my cell phone, and I don’t really know how to tell my husband. Phones that are sold by our [...]