I don’t want to write how I’m feeling right now. I don’t want to say I’m feeling anger. I don’t want to feel anything, but the Fentanyl can only numb so much. It’s downright terrible …

Wow. The past ten days have really taken a toll on me. I knew that Friday night when I was sick, vomiting, and refused to do anything other than stare at the mounds of housework …

I was sick all day yesterday. Throwing up, stomach pains, and so fourth. I don’t know what was wrong, other than that. I wanted to finish my shopping yesterday or today, but the stomach pains …

My eyes are messed up today. I’m not sure if it’s the alcohol that I have increased in the past week, or the contact lenses that I wore overnight last night, because I am sick …