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No Shugah Tonite

Echos — Tue, 03 Jan 2012 03:43:21 +0000

I hope everyone is having a good, happy, and safe New Year. So many people are so hopeful of 2012, from what I’ve read from several blogs around the net. Here’s hoping that it brings everyone everything they have been hoping and wishing for for the past eleven years!

As for me, I’m ill tonight. I have a doctor’s appointment bumped up to Friday, the same day as Chloe’s. I’m just not well. I have several cuts and wounds that are not healing properly (I’m not picking any scabs, I promise!) and I think I need some prescription medicine for them. I also have some problems with my feet; they’re suddenly cold at night, and stiff, and they never warm up. Ever. I have an idea of what it is, but I want some medical tests done to make sure I’m not just imagining things.

In other words: No Shuggah Tonite guise! If not, can you see/guess the minut little change I made? No? Oh well. I tried.

Christmas Is

Echos — Sun, 25 Dec 2011 22:21:56 +0000

… the spirit of love that surrounds us and touches us with its greatness. It’s the kindness and unselfishness of giving. It’s not about gifts wrapped in pretty paper, but the heart that’s put into our actions. It’s the celebration of life. It’s opening our heart up to the miracles that happen everyday. It’s about the birth of a child.

… And the angel said unto them, Fear not: for, behold, I bring you good tidings of great joy, which shall be to all people. For unto you born this day in the city of David a Saviour, which is Christ the Lord. ~ Luke 2:10-11

Merry Christmas.

The Colours of My Life

Echos — Fri, 23 Dec 2011 22:29:49 +0000

Hope you guys like the new layout! I certainly do. Looks a tad more professional. I’m going to go lay down before this seizure hits full

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Keep watching the skies! Santa’s bound to be out there somewhere!

Winter Is Here Again

Echos — Fri, 23 Dec 2011 05:45:45 +0000

It’s snowing. Big, floppy flakes that stick to everything they touch. From the ground to your eye lashes. It’s truly the first day of winter.

Being that, I was going to change my layout today, but my heart just isn’t in to updating a page today. I had to force myself out of bed to type these few sentences.

Maybe I’ll be more into it tomorrow.

The Lucky One

Echos — Sun, 18 Dec 2011 04:41:38 +0000

It’s good to be home. It’s good to be able to be home. It’s good to be able to just be.

I had another bout with a blood clot. This time in my right leg. I had severe leg pain and went to the doctor just to be x-rayed, ultra-sound-ed, and told that I needed surgery to remove the clot. I was afraid I was going to miss Christmas. I was absent during my own SITS period, and I’m sure that people out there think I abandoned the site or lied when I said I was going to return comments. I got over sixty comments, and I am trying my best to return them today. I’m just so tired, even after being home a full day. The surgery required a little incision in my chest, which then required sutures to close up. Infection spread within a day of the sutures, causing my delay in getting home, and escalating my sadness for possibly missing Christmas with my family.

I sorely underestimated how much love my family has for me.

They waited for me to get home just to clear a space for the Christmas tree to be put up. For over a week, Dennis fed, clothed, washed and entertained the little ones, going so far as to cancel a meeting with his mates to be at home with the kids. One of the activities they did was make cards and drawings for me, nearly every day, which Dennis brought to me on his daily visits. I did cry when I saw Chloe’s drawing. It was of me, as an angel, with the words: “Don’t spend Christmas with Jesus this year!” at the bottom. I’m not sure why she is so certain that I will not be around to see her grow up. I am going to be around for a very long time, I am planning on that. Something I set my mind to.

Coming home yesterday was a relief. I am thankful all over again for what I have and how I have been blessed in this life. I was thankful for every little thing I had, from my cell phone, to my bed, to being able to watch TV on my own set. I missed so much by being in the hospital, yet I gained so much in perspective on how much I am loved, appreciated, and thought of by my family. Though there wasn’t really anything that made me think otherwise. *all smiles*

As for my health, my doctor doesn’t know what is wrong with me, or how to “fix” me. He’s actually told me that I will never be cured, and I should make arrangements to reflect that. But why? I don’t feel worse, except for after dinner tonight, I felt as if I was going to throw up, though that may be because I’m not used to eating much lately.

In the end, I feel incredibly lucky to have the family and support that I do. Even in the comments and emails I get from this page, people are so wonderful to me most of the time. Big thank you if you were one of the people who have left me support, humor, and general happiness.

For now, I’m off to bed, to sleep off this nausea and just dream. G’Nite everyone!

Christmas

Echos — Tue, 06 Dec 2011 06:00:54 +0000

If you want to get me something off my wish list, that is here.

If you want to send me a Christmas card, that would be great. I’ll send one back to each one that I get, and on Christmas Day, I will scan all the cards, make a collage and post them here in my journal for all to see.

The Leonids Fell

Echos — Wed, 23 Nov 2011 00:26:47 +0000

Thursday night the Leonids fell for the year 2011. I watched in awe and silence as the meteors fell as fiery streaks across the sky. The rain of meteors, as they silently streaked across the velvet sky, calmed me, in a way. I wrote about it in my journal, but I cannot find said journal now, so I cannot re-write what I wrote as I watched them. I did take some photos with my star app.

I got a battery for my newer camera, and I was able to use the silly thing for more than a few seconds. It’s strange that the camera works better with a rechargeable battery than with brand-new, super-powerful batteries that work so great in my other toys. The zoom is wonderful. The “night scape” is awesome. It picked up my glowing isotopes perfectly in the dark with no flash.

Zoom example:

Poor dog didn’t really want her picture taken. She’s a really fairly reserved dog, who shies away from people. I caught her licking her nose, and snapped the picture a second too late, so she looked like she was sticking her tongue out at me. Good thing dogs can’t Google themselves and find these embarrassing photos of themselves online.

The isotopes’ photo. You can see them glowing and the glow radiating from them on the left-hand side of the photo.

Yes, it’s perfectly safe for me to have those sitting out on my dresser top. These particular isotopes are only dangerous if you eat them, and if you’re that ignorant, well, I can’t help you. They do make an erie glow late at night when I wake up.

I’m still getting used to the side effects and behavioural changes from the increased dose of Cymbalta. I’m also still puzzled as to why I really need that. Why I was prescribed it. I noticed that I do not eat as much as before, I almost never laugh or smile, and I don’t make an effort to catch my favourite TV shows anymore. I feel like … a zombie. A living corpse. It really is worrying me, especially since I’ve noticed these side effects more so than others. I’m also sleeping much more. I’ve slept for eighteen hours at a time, when given the chance. That cannot be good.

Oh, and yesterday I finally got the new iPhone, the 4S. I haven’t played around with it much, other than to put the anti-glare screen protector on and the new Speck Candy Shell case.

That’s it for me! To all my readers in the USA: Happy Thanksgiving! I’m going to catch some more sleep until dinner time.

Words of Encouragement

Echos — Sat, 29 Oct 2011 21:44:09 +0000

These are kind of cheesy, but sometimes we need a little cheese to make life spicy-er

We head back home on Tuesday. Two more days and nights, and then it’s back home to the daily grind. I can’t say that this trip has helped me any, but I can’t say that I’m worse, either. I’m somewhere in between. Tomorrow is my 5th anniversary with Dennis. I hope we celebrate accordingly! Have a good weekend, a happy Halloween, and I’ll see you next month!

Rerun of 2010

Echos — Sat, 08 Oct 2011 02:54:23 +0000

I bought the Godiva bear with Chocolate coins for Chloe’s Halloween present this year:

Looks almost just like a bear that I bought and photographed 366 days ago! Oh wait. As per the words of the Godiva rep, there’s no date on the left foot of this year’s Halloween bear, and the bag is of mesh material instead of the silky orange with black embroidery that was on last year’s candy bag. That photo could have been taken today. Same computer. Same desk. Same small calendar. Same Halloween bear. Here’s hoping that Chloe doesn’t realise that until waaaaay after Halloween.

At least the Christmas bear does not disappoint:

There’s even a dark chocolate and peppermint candy attached to the sweater! Awesome-ness!

I did some work on the site. I deleted some of the plugins that I didn’t use or need, I optimised the database and tables, and guess what came back? My archive page! Like anyone cares. Most people come here for that little yellow bar, click it and leave until the next day they have to come back to earn them self another point from that site, to pile up to how ever many they need to advertise on other’s sites so that their PR will climb. I doubt that anyone really reads my content anymore. The only comments I get are spammers and “Link backers”. Nothing really worth keeping the site open as a blog anymore.

I’m wondering what to do with this place. Nothing exciting happens on here anymore, not even comments. I guess that’s a sign that my blogging days are over. I’m going to be thinking on this more. Till next time.

Happy Independence Day!

Echos — Mon, 04 Jul 2011 16:24:53 +0000