Happiness

Posted on March 5th, 2010 by admin in Life

I’m getting ready for a dinner party tonight.
Dennis is home. I woke up this morning to him sleeping next to me. I don’t know when he got in. I’m happy to see him, happy to be going to the dinner party, and just happy in general. We got a new phone number, so [...]

Spring Is In The Air

Posted on March 3rd, 2010 by admin in Adventures, Depression, Family, Friends, Life

I got almost everything done this afternoon. I say almost because I’m waiting on doing the dishes until later tonight. The warm weather and the fact that I feel much better are reasons why I got most of my stuff done today. I know cleaning house and taking care of kids all while [...]

Cake Timer

Posted on March 2nd, 2010 by admin in Adventures, Birthdays, Life

I’m baking my mom a cake for her birthday tomorrow. Matt is here and we made lemon and toffee cake. It won’t bake in the center. Seriously, it’s liquid in the middle, and it’s been in the oven for over two hours. We keep setting the timer for 15-20 minutes, and every time it goes [...]

Noooooo!

Posted on February 23rd, 2010 by admin in Health, Illness, Life, Medical

I think I’m getting strep again! NO! I just got over that! And the nasty yeast infection that went with it.
I’ll make an appointment to see the doc tomorrow. Right now I have to gag down my pills.

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Deeper

Posted on February 22nd, 2010 by admin in Depression, Family, Life, Married Life, Relationships

The sadness won’t go away. I feel isolated and trapped. I tried to reach out to several friends today, and the only one who didn’t flat out ignore me picked a fight with me and we had a falling out.
*sigh*
When did it get so complicated? Why is it so complicated? I know I am blessed, [...]

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I’m A Mess

Posted on February 21st, 2010 by admin in Depression, Family, Illness, Life

Thank you all for the well wishes.
I wish I could say that I’m better and ready to get to class on Monday, new lab book in hand, but I’m still not well. I’m nauseated and groggy. I have heart burn and my back hurts. I’m really falling apart, huh?
I’m going to medicate and [...]

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I’ll Be Waiting

Posted on February 19th, 2010 by admin in Depression, Family, Life

It happened. It wasn’t glorious, it wasn’t overly dramatic. I just stood there and let it happen. It’s not as if I didn’t know this was coming, I knew. I knew well. It was more that I was expecting myself to react differently. I was expecting to cry, to be overwhelmed with feelings of dread [...]

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I’ll Wait Endlessly

Posted on February 18th, 2010 by admin in Adventures, Depression, Family, Life, Married Life

Tomorrow morning my husband will be getting on a plane and going clear across the world for his career. We do need the money, but I wish there was a better way. I wish I could say that I made his last few days with the family a memorable one, but I simply pushed him [...]

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