Four years ago today, on a Friday the Thirteenth, I met one of the best friends I’ll ever have. We met at a job interview. He interviewed me as a pre-screening, and for some reason felt the need that I was whatever they were looking for, and sent me in to the Big Boss. Over [...]

The Dream

Posted on January 8th, 2010 by star in Family, Life, Living with Death, Pictures!

I dreamed about him last night. I dreamed that we were back at the nursing lab, and he was asking me for help. I blame this on an email I got last night. Someone asked me why I didn’t post about him anymore. How was he doing? Did he get well and move out? Technically, [...]

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I didn’t sleep last night. Not last night. Just like three years ago. I’m wearing the same blue night shirt, laying on the same pillows, thinking about the same things. I wasn’t surprised when the bright sunlight came in through the curtains, telling me that the dawn had come. The snow clouds soon choked out [...]

Any time in the next couple of days little James can be coming home. I’m super excited about it. Our family will be complete again.
James had his surgery and he pulled through ok. He’s responsive now.
With all that has come into light, my husband and I have decided to do our Christmas shopping either [...]

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They’re playing the continuous Christmas Songs already. It isn’t even Halloween night, yet, and the Christmas songs are filling the air tonight. I have to admit, it made me feel warm and happy all over again. I mean, they used to start the Christmas songs on Thanksgiving night, but playing them now? That’s [...]

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27 If…

Posted on October 24th, 2009 by star in Among the Stars, Family, Friends, Life, Living with Death, Married Life

The premiere was wonderful. Several of the actors remembered me, and the few that didn’t remember me on the spot remembered me as soon as I mentioned things we’d talked about last year. Yes, I had a little too much to drink, laughed a little too loudly, and partied a little too hard. But I [...]

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Perhaps It Will Rain Afterall

Posted on October 7th, 2009 by star in Family, Life, Living with Death, kids

When I came home in between classes today, the sun was shining brightly in the sky. There wasn’t a cloud in sight. I remember I checked the weather on my iPhone and it said it was raining out right then. I giggled and put the phone away before going inside. I found Dennis and Chloe [...]

Bender's Big Score

Posted on September 19th, 2009 by star in Depression, Family, Living with Death

I tried watching Bender’s Big Score again today. I say again because I watched it the first time in May. With Pogo. It was the last movie we watched together before she died. She asked me if I could get it for her on DVD. Thanks to my online friends and friends across the T1 [...]

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