Ice Storm ’10

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Thursday, January 28, 2010 21.39.38 |  by Jamie  |  College Life, technology

We’re getting an ice storm right now. The power hasn’t gone out, but it flickered a few times, so I thought I’d update before all hell broke loose and just let everyone know that if you don’t see me for a few days, call me. If a month goes by, call the police; it means I’m dead from taking away the Seconal.

I will say that I love watching the ice through the orange barf glow of the street lamps. The glittering is so calming. To make matters better, the University is closed tomorrow, but I still have to get up and do an assignment, and then email it back to my professor. “Just because the University is giving you a day off doesn’t mean that I am. Anyone who doesn’t turn in the assignment by 9:50am tomorrow morning will have their final grade lowered a whole letter grade.” Wow. I log in to get the assignment, and it’s not there, so I email the professor. This is what I got back:

“Why do you students not talk to each other? I am NOT UPLOADING THE FILE UNTIL 9AM. YOU MUST BE AWAKE AND READY TO DOWNLOAD IT BY 9:05AM BECAUSE AFTER THAT, I WILL PULL THE DOWNLOAD!

And print out a copy and do a hard copy to bring to class on Monday. We’re behind schedule already.”

Geeze, teach, did they take away your mental pills or something? He’s the third person to give me a hard time today. I think it’s time to go slink off and take my meds and get to bed.

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Cleaned House

Wednesday, January 27, 2010 05.35.09 |  by Jamie  |  Site News, technology

I just cleaned up this site to perfection. Anyone know anything different on here?

Since I just spent the last six hours tweaking the layout and purging the server, I’m going to bed. I’m nowhere near done with working on this, but I’ve already watched Saw VI three times and my laptop battery is dying. So it’s off to bed with me! I shall post a little more later on.

The Raging War

Saturday, January 23, 2010 23.55.45 |  by Jamie  |  Depression, Drugs, Family, Health, Illness, Life, Married Life, Medical, Relationships, technology

There’s a misty fog outside, and I feel sick. I am still at war with my husband over these pills. I feel as though I can’t get anything done because he’s always there, with the pills, forcing me to take them. He’s convinced that if I do not take these pills, I will die. I am convinced that if I continue to take them, I will never get well.
There’s something bothering me. I’ve tried to ignore it, but it’s very clear that it’s not something that is just going to go away. I’ve been linked through a blog called OneBadGuy, but it’s invited to readers only. What’s the point in that? Oh well.
I need to get to sleep now. I had a long day of cleaning and fighting, and I just want to lay down and close my eyes for now.

Nice Try

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Sunday, January 17, 2010 18.04.31 |  by Jamie  |  Adventures, Humor, I hate people, Life, Pictures!, Social Networks, technology

You know…if you’re going to make a fake FaceBook profile to attempt to get me to add you back, because you think I’m talking shit about you on there (I’m not! I promise!), and you make the profile of a real person, but change their birthday, it kind of sticks out that your profile is fake. Try reading that actor’s Wikipedia page or even Googling their name before you make a fake profile of them:

Click for larger.
Nice touch adding and getting approved by Costas first. At least you’re in the right franchise.

The Fourth Anniversary

Wednesday, January 13, 2010 19.56.22 |  by Jamie  |  Friends, Life, Living with Death, Nostalgia, Pictures!, technology

Four years ago today, on a Friday the Thirteenth, I met one of the best friends I’ll ever have. We met at a job interview. He interviewed me as a pre-screening, and for some reason felt the need that I was whatever they were looking for, and sent me in to the Big Boss. Over the next four months, we became good friends. Chris used to bring me my lunch every day. I took on other tasks to put in overtime, which escalated our project’s outcome. We were promoted twice, and fired at the same time for the same thing. Over the next few months, we went to class together with the same major. Chris went to my wedding. He was there when I had my boys.
Suddenly, in January of 2008, he became ill. He slept a lot. He had nose bleeds. He vomited for no reason. He just didn’t feel right. It wasn’t until March of 2008, after our trip to Texas, where we had a slight falling out, that he went to a doctor. His blood tests revealed that he wouldn’t be returning to class in August: He had Aplastic Anemia, probably induced from our work with tritium while making gel DNA runs for electrophoresis. We never wore masks or gloves. Tritium isn’t supposed to be able to penetrate the skin, but I think there were more isotopes used in the ingredients.
By June of 2008, Chris was gone.
Chris refused treatment, claiming that he’d seen the effects of immuno-suppressed people and he didn’t want to be in that boat. I wonder if there were some other reason he chose to not accept treatment. I wonder why he chose that he chose.
Chris was who I thought I saw last month in the ‘haunted lab’. It certainly looked like him. Though by now, I’m probably sounding crazy. I’m no longer sorrowful that Chris is gone, but happy that he was my friend for as long as he was. Through Chris I met Matt, got my iPhone, and learned that I’m not completely hopeless.
Speaking of my phone, I had a little talk with USC. My information, including the stuff on my memory card, was sent to someone else’s phone. While USC admitted they made a mistake, they won’t just wipe the info from that person’s phone. The best they can do is get in touch with that person and ask if they deleted it. Pretty much, I am at the mercy of some stranger whose Blackberry is just one digit off of my phone’s serial number. I never should have gone back to USC. AT&T was bad about coverage and customer service, but they never lost my information like that. The icing on the cake is when I asked why they couldn’t just wipe that person’s phone, I was told “That would be an invasion of privacy to that customer.” As if sending said customer my information in the first place wasn’t! USC knows they’ve screwed up, much so that they offered me six months of unlimited talk time, to waive my current bill, and not even contact me for any payments until July–if I signed a waiver that they are not responsible for accidentally giving my information to another customer. This person has my full name, photos of me, text messages, emails, email addresses, email accounts, some MP3s I love, my nursing software, pharmacology e-books and reference books, chemical calculations, my themes, Twitter, Flickr, Tumblr, the numbers of people I have called. All because a USC customer tech didn’t read the serial number right when transferring the information. I declined signing that paper. If my identity is stolen, I think USC is financially responsible.
Other than that, I can never, ever get my information back. They claim they can’t tell what data on that other person’s phone is mine and what is their own data, so I just have to grin and bear it. So if you’ve called me in the past two years, and you get cranks from some stranger, it’s not my fault. Also, I need all my contacts back, so feel free to call me again or text me.

Problems, Problems

Monday, January 4, 2010 16.53.25 |  by Jamie  |  Depression, Family, Life, Married Life, Relationships, Site News, technology

If this is happening to you when you try to comment, rest assured, as of right now, I am getting my comments. I don’t know what’s up with that error message, but I’m getting multiple comments and emails of comment notification (hey, I wanted comments!) and I really don’t know what’s wrong. If all else fails, you can email me. :) This is just one of the many reasons I want to move back to WordPress, but I can’t get a decent theme for it. I want this theme, but that’s probably not going to happen. I deleted some of the plugins I had, and it works now. I don’t know which one was causing the error, probably “comment challenger” but some of the plugins I installed never showed up. Bleh. You have to be a programmer to get this software to run smoothly. :\
My phone crashed last night. Crashed and burned and I lost all my contacts and the password to my voicemail. The roads are still icy and I can’t even get to the grocery store, so I can’t get to the phone store and get my voicemail password or my contacts back. I pay extra for that to be backed up, and I can’t use it. :( So if you’ve called or texted me, try it again. So very sorry for all of this.
Our relationship isn’t going any better. We’re still not communicating normally. Whatever that is. I wanted to call Mark and ask him if I could stay with him if things got bad, but I don’t have his number anymore (thankyouverymuch phone crash!) and that would just be awkward anyway. I don’t know what I’m going to do at this point. Cry? Panic? Over-correct on medicine to compensate? I sleep 14 hours at a stretch the way it is. The depression is coming on thick. I need to do something. I just don’t know what that is.

All Fixed

Sunday, December 27, 2009 19.35.40 |  by Jamie  |  technology

Everything on the site is fixed. People should be able to comment, the EC widget is back in business, and hopefully the spammers are debunked for the time being.

I spent two hours working on this, so now that it’s done, I’m exhausted, and I want to get some sleep. Good night everybody! Leave me tonnes of comments!!!

Out of Words

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Sunday, December 20, 2009 18.45.09 |  by Jamie  |  Depression, Site News, technology

The problem with updating every day? Eventually, you run out of things to say.
Look around at the blog world. Everything has already been blogged about, just not by me, but I like to pride myself in having a site that is unique or the content on it is unique.
I’m sure people are sick of coming here, looking for something that I am obviously not providing. The lack of comments tells me that much.
No, I’m not going to get rid of this site. I love updating, I love the site. As long as I have the funds to run it, this site will remain. It’s become my passion. But there are times when I think it would be a good idea if I didn’t participate in the every-day-postings or it might be a good idea if I took a break from this blog.
When I first had a blog, I used to update every single day without fail, because I wanted to. I’d wake up every day, excited that I could share my feelings with the rest of the world. Now I wake up and dread that I have to update. My attitude towards blogging has changed over the past decade. I wish I could get that passion back, but I don’t believe I ever will.
All that aside, tomorrow is the anniversary of something big. No, not the beginning of winter, but something bigger. :)