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For My Own Good

My friends and family members are driving me crazy today. They seem to think that I am in some kind of trouble, and they want to teach me an “important life lesson”. It’s kind of backfired. Instead of being grateful that people care about me, I’ve resolved to never tell anyone anything again. No matter what. Not my mother, not my husband, not our friends, no one. Sure, that will probably seriously come back on me, and I may end up the victim of a serial killer, but at the moment, I really don’t care. I’d rather become and unsolved murder victim than to take more of the verbal abuse that I have been subjected to today.

I have reassured them that I knew what I was doing when I did it. I have reassured them that I thought this time of making a friend was different than the other times. It fell on deaf ears. I have been labeled “stupid” and “vulnerable” by people who are supposed to have my best interests in mind. I have been asked many times “how much was it this time?” by people who should not even have a say so in the entire ordeal.

Don’t get me wrong. I understand that many people are without caring people in their lives or people who really, truly care what happens to them, but I feel the people in my life have taken this into overkill, and I don’t like it one bit.


The Waiting

I’m mad at my husband. He won’t go to the hospital. He’s having a medical emergency, the visit would be covered, but he’s not going. Makes perfect sense, doesn’t it? There have been other things that went down since I last updated that made me pretty mad, but I won’t waste my energy and time on posting about them. Just keep in mind, I’m not in a good mood tonight. I may just crawl into bed and stay there for the night.


Future Drama

My husband may or may not need to go to the hospital this evening.

Hopefully I’ll be able get my hands on a computer and keep everyone updated.

Warm thoughts?


A Day About Nothing

I wonder why Doc Mick upped my medication from Vicodin to Oxy? I have not taken any, too scared of the unknown side effects, but I’m curious as to why he’d do something like that. He also just gave me a bottle of Oxy in his office yesterday, in case I couldn’t make it to the drug store. I have a headache right now, but the hard parts are over. I won’t be needing anymore surgeries or procedures done for another year. I’m really happy about that. Does it mean that I’m getting well? The doctors I have rarely tell me anything. Doc Mick just drugs me and tells me to close my eyes and ‘not watch’ the procedures. But my morbid curiosity takes over, and I watch. This has annoyed him in the past, and he ups my dosages. I go back to see him Monday to get the stitches pulled. Then it’s over. I don’t go back for another year or so. Lucky, lucky me. I finally find a doctor who takes my pain seriously and gives me treatments that actually work and I can only see him once a year. That’s a good thing, I hope.

The weather has been strange here. It was “cold” yesterday and today. 68 was the high. For August, that’s not bad. It was October weather in the middle of summer. I’m torn between shutting the air conditioner off and turning it on after having a hot flash. The weather has made me restless. My sudden lack of pain has made me energetic. I want to go out and play in the nice weather while I can, but I devoted myself to solving the problems at home, first.

My monkeys have transformed to monsters. They trash the house. Let the dogs out the front door, where there’s no fenced yard. Turn the pet rat loose in the house. Dump food out of the cabinets and ice box. Dump trash out of the cans. Pull the sheets off mommy’s bed. Chloe even unplugged my bed; in both areas, and when I laid down today, water gushed out of the mattress all over me! All of them, except for Hayley, are acting up. No amount of sending them to their rooms or locking things up seem to help. When all else fails, they tear up the carpet and peel the wall paper off the walls. This transformation has come because mommy and daddy are mad at each other and they can feel the tension. They’ve guessed that if mommy and daddy are mad at them, we can’t be mad at each other anymore. It’s brilliant, really. They have outsmarted and out numbered us, and their plan worked. For now. There are deeper issues that have to be surfaced, and those issues aren’t going to be resolved overnight, nor will they be solved in front of the kids. We’re going to talk about this. Not tonight, because I’ve got a migraine starting, but soon.

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